How many questions live unresolved in my heart! I am seeking to discover and live my life’s purpose and it is unfolding slowly, step by step by step. I am constantly asking the Divine and my guides for guidance, and the answer I most often receive is “the answers are already within you”. So frustrating! And yet so often true. So the questions that are constantly in my heart are: What is my purpose? What is my path? What are my next steps? The trick is keeping these questions present and my heart open for guidance, while not thinking about the answers so much that thinking overshadows any guidance I may receive. (9-30-12)
Prayer
Prayer is my sacred communion with the Divine, that quite time that only belongs to me and my Creator. Prayer is my opportunity to ask—ask for help, mercy, forgiveness, grace, strength, knowing, guidance—and receive whatever I need in that moment. Prayer transcends time and space. Prayer is stillness, a time to slow down and remember my Source. Prayer is something I don’t do nearly often enough… (9-29-12)
Pages of my life
If you looked at the pages of my life, you would learn that doing too much without asking for help or taking care of yourself in the process leads to a myriad of physical, emotional, and spiritual issues. That self care is not selfish; in fact, it’s essential. That what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger, but that we’ve had the power all along to make things easier. That seemingly unimportant events and experiences can be the seed or even the actual catalyst for major life change. That the challenges we face, though often excruciatingly painful at the time, lay the foundation for the higher path we’re here on this earth to do, and for the person that we’re supposed to be, if we only choose to learn from them rather than wallow in the pain or use it as an excuse. That higher guidance is always available, even when we don’t recognize it or reach for it. (9-28-12)
I am…
I am… passionate & sensitive, empathic, deliberate, often fearful, empathetic, impatient, loving, kind, heart-centered, a good mother & wife, open-minded, spiritual, awakening to my gifts as a writer, a beautiful being of light! (9-24-12)
In the Name of "God"
Prior to my current spiritual journey, I simply spoke of “God”, a reflection on my understanding of the Divine as a singular, distant being. Over the past few years, however, I’ve come to understand the Divine as being part of all things in the Universe, multi-faceted and multi-dimensional, simultaneously expressing as me and through me. Because of this, the term “God” no longer seems to fit. God represents, to me, the distant being of ancient religion, an unattainable human goal. To relate as “Source”, “Spirit”, or the “Divine” connects me both to where I came from and what I am. I tend to use these terms interchangeably now; however, certain rituals still lend themselves to “God” for me. Out of habit, I still pray to God, but now it’s “Father-Mother God”. In this, I maintain comfort in an old ritual while still upgrading the image of God in my mind to a duality of both male and female. Including God as mother adds the inherent nurturing quality of a woman, once again making “God” less of a being on high and instead more approachable, attainable, and innately loving. (9-21-12)